Who am I?

Hola my friend!

Here is a poem I wrote with varied levels of mixed emotions... 

Amidst dilemmatic ways

What does my mind say?

I don't know!

Have I become ruthless?

Why am I so clueless?

I can't feel! 

I live in my utopia 

But leave behind a dystopia --

Is this really me?

Hope you enjoyed! Adios:)